keeping up with jones

why are you grown and smelling like piss?
homeless or not - get that shxt together.
when i get on the train i don't want to smell it.

there are fountains, bathrooms and unoccupied dwellings all over dc to wash up in.
find one please.

so i stick my head out the window - and pray to god to make it better.



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so me and SHE sat down to discuss like & the shxt it offers (good & bad) - and i listened to her tell me her stories of the latest happenings, and i remembered why i'm so afraid to have a daughter.

i think any guy in his right mind should be afraid to have a daughter.
i remember how i was & and i know how i am now.
i remember my frat brothers & their countless number of chicks in flicks.
i remember the outhouses and graveyard fxck sessions of undergrad life.

these were people's daughters.
some man was sitting at home praying his daughter wasn't 400 miles away from home getting done in.

that can not be me.

there are rules she'd have to follow that the kid (my son) would never have to follow.
yes, i know it's unfair, but FXCK THAT!

rules:

-she'd be home-schooled through college. (i would type the degree on my computer)
-she can't date any frat boys (not even NUPES. FXCK THAT)
-she'll have to consider dating women
-she can't be too ugly or too pretty. (the pretty girls get tried too often - and the ugly girls have to make up for being ugly)

MORE TO COME.



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i'm supposed to be in philly right now - sitting across from ms. aaron discussing what the business is!
but tmobile acts stupid!

so i'm working that out now...
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so i leave you with this:
i've learned to walk on my own.
on the shoulders of other men is no place for a leader to be.

i hope this all makes sense...i was hungry and angry when i wrote it:



so i just tweeted:

"if i were keyshia cole - i'd kill my entire family in the name of everything that's decent & black"

and i meant every word.
i sometimes sit and wish there came a point in every black man and woman's life where they'd finally wake up and see what the fxck is really going on. but it only happens for a few of us, according to a few of the idiots that follow me that support bullshxt on a daily basis.

and i use keyshia cole's family as the lamb in this story. the folks i need to sacrifice to make my point.
feel me?

why does BET allow an ex crackhead who (rumor has it) sold her children to men for sex have her own show?
WHY?! because they are BET.

they haven't been right since they fired tavis back in 2001.
some bullshxt again.

the problem is ignorant black folks today came from ignorant black folks of yesterday - and the cycle keeps going, and not many are born with the knowledge to break the cycle. we ALL know who brought us those chains - but we all know who needs to remove them

i sometimes think obama was a tradeoff.
THEY gave us obama because they knew that even with a black president, TYLER PERRY & BET would keep us DOWN.

so i'm working on my list of black folks who need to be sh_t:

tyler perry
keyshia cole's entire family
bob johnson
tiny & toya
90% of the RHOA
anybody who's ever even made a cameo on Flavor of Love & I Love New York
the ex mayor of daytona (oh...she already died)
anybody who ever made a "Free (enter name here)" shirt knowing damn well they NEEDED to be arrested
anybody who sells crack in black neighborhoods
all sharpton!!!

etc...

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so i've been given the green light to shoot my film.
now i'm in casting mode.

the title:
THE FIELD NIGGER AND THE BUCHENWALD JEW

it's about the dynamics of a racially driven relationship between a black man and a jewish man over a game of chess.

it's not the coonery some folks may be used to.
far from it.
i believe my problem with hollywood (and in TP's case atlanta) is that i think too much.
you can't have a mind of your own and work in hollywood happily.

and i strongly believe that there is a high price to pay for those who use their god given talents to feed the people garbage.
so i'm raising the consciousness of the people!
taking as many of them from niggas to gods.

because we are gods.
and before some of the sensitive folks get mad, learn your word, then come at me.

side note: i had a girl (christian) get mad at me the other day because i knew more about her holy book than she did.

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love is my religion.
all we need is love.
-ziggy marley

i re-named autumn after the girl i loved the most. this is the letter i wrote her. (autumn - not the girl)

dear moonfaced girl:

i woke up this morning and the man on the radio said you were coming for a visit.
it's been a few months since i've seen you last. there have been women between then and now, but i'm not sure if they'll survive your return.
there are those who have proven themselves weak and have been left at tables & in parking lots wondering if i'd return.
probably not.

i sometimes sit and listen to bill withers talk about his everyday darkness in her absence. "her" being the woman that goes away. i have no idea where she's going, but i sometimes wonder if she ever left him as long as you've left me.

it's going on 9 months now.

i've begged women not to get their emotions caught on my buttons.
i stopped wearing earrings in 2006 because i listened to brittany's heart beat and it got caught on the diamonds.

i haven't yet mastered the art of breaking their minds.
love me with that, i tell them.

but, moonfaced girl -

do me a favor.
make sure those that break rules find lovers to hibernate with through the winter - and dine with in spring.
summer does her own thing, so i leave no notes for her.

i want to fall in autumn - hibernate in winter with youknowwho
so please, moonfaced girl, don't mess this up.

signed,

me.

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is it just today - or things are really getting better?

a few days ago i was a week away from kicking it with JILL on the streets of vegas - feeling up prostitutes and losing a few thousand at the tables. (well - jill wants to play nothing but the slots for pennies and quarters).

not now thanks to the powers that be.
we were celebrating birthdays, friendships & freedom.
fuck fuck fuck.

sorry jill.
wee you back on the east.

the good that did come out of it is the green light i got to shoot my film.
so that's definitely great!
i am, after all, a filmmaker of sorts - so i have to maintain status.

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i'm learning that even superman dies.

the past seven days have been rather insane. the kind that drives men's souls.
between the fxckery of howard university in all their glory & realizing that everybody doesn't have my best interest in mind i've learned that i really need some refocusing done in my life.

i'm used to moving every three months to different city and states, and since i've been here in dc working on this goal - i've been kind of stuck. so i've settled for escaping on weekends to NYC, Florida, Philly, Va, Bahamas, etc...
but lately, i haven't even been escaping really. i've just been here. and i'm fxcking going crazy!

this weekend my plan is to take a trip to philly to walk in the MADD (mothers against drunk driving) walk in the name of my brother, Antoine Blakey.
IF YOU WANT TO JOIN THE CAUSE AND VIRTUALLY WALK WITH ME - GO TO : HTTP://www.walklikemadd.org AND JOIN THE TEAM: ANTOINE'S ANGELS. (any amount really helps towards the goal)

side note: if i could do it all again - i would go to vocational school and become a barber. 'cause this other shxt is for the birds really. i'm not even it in for the degree anymore. i'm in it because if i drop out, all the shxt talkers will be blogging about me! and i need to laugh at those axxholes like ha ha ha.
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the wise men say if you are able to count on one hand the number of FRIENDS you have, you are a lucky person.
oh, how true.
fortunately for me, i can count on hands and toes the number of friends i have.
even the ones who threw me to the wayside when i needed them most.
they're still friends. the thing now is: you have to figure out when to need them.

perfect example: i have friends who can't fight, and won't fight. so if i get jumped in a club and they didn't try to help, i wouldn't be mad, because i knew better. feel me.

it isn't until we're staring at the rocks that we realize who's willing to come down and stare with us.

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so to refocus:

i'm working on getting published in a few literary & getting others published as well with my company.
i'll be drawing up contracts and packages for the next week and a half, maybe two weeks.
i have to put my production book together by thursday & then perfect it beyond that, and start setting up to film.

then there are midterms & bullshxt.

so i'm sacrificing a few social gatherings...like tonight twitfam meeting @ jin lounge on 14th.
i won't be able to kick it unless my folks wanna hit the libraries & filming locations with me.

i will be free again november 1st.
GIVE US FREE

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sorry if i bored you with this blog folks.
just had to move past the bullshxt so i can get back to 100% with the shxt you like!
cool?