when they speak of...

in the very near future - 1 week - when they speak of "success" i'm what they might mean.

as much as i'm indifferent about abraham lincoln and his politics - i do admire the man for his hustle. actually, in real life, i admire everyone who has the hustler agenda in tow.

i keep mine in my northface backpack next to my journal and passport.

abraham lincoln had this to say: 'things may come to those who wait - but only things left by those who hustle'

i hustle...today i:

- 11am: meeting with lighting crew

- 1:30pm: meeting with sound engineer

- 2:30pm: audition #1

- 4:00pm: audition #2

-5:00pm: meeting with potential director

- 6:30pm: audition #3

-7:00pm: meeting with choreographer

-7:27pm: blog with a bottle of apple soda in my hand.

i got trey songz's "just gotta make it" on repeat.
you all need to listen to lyrics.

something about me i bet you didn't know:
at least once a week i have a dream that someone is trying to kill me, and they are usually successful in their attempt. but once they shoot me (usually shooting) and i die, i keep thinking 'this is just your dream' and i get up full of holes, and a little weaker than before - but still alive.

when i wake up, though, i'm kinda nervous at first...but then great things begin happening, and i take the dream as a sign.

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but on some other shxt...

since posting the blog with the shxtty underwear - i've been in the market to buy some new 'man panties.' (yes i said man panties - grow up asxholes)
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well:
i think these may not be for men - but i am not sure yet.
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and:
i am not sure what to think and what that little nub section is for. perhaps awkward ball men.
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but:
i will stick to whatever will get me in all the hood clubs in all the ghettos across america.
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and @amandasophia just text me talking about a chocolate fountain at the restaurant she went to for lunch - and i'm sitting here looking at an empty box of fruit roll-ups and a parking lot through my window trying to figure out if i feel like walking to the dang ol' store.

who knows...

but until then, my friends...hustle!

and remember:
hustle so hard that the only jobs left are the ones you don't want!

peace

have we had sex?

speaking of awkward moments:
a few years back during homecoming at the great bethune cookman college founded by dr. mary mcleod bethune - i ran into an old flame (an "old piece" if you will)

i often refer to her as "the whore that turned me into a cold-hearted heart thief" but for now we will simply call her "an old flame."

at this homcoming's "alumni ball" we met on the dance floor and did a little jig, cut a rug, and bumped booties a few times. i had seagram's vodka rushing through the veins with a mix of blood thinning medication and probably a couple of shots of tequila thanks to my line brother who we usually find in a dark corner sipping on a bottle of cyclone.

freddie jackson comes on:

ROCK ME TONIGHT FOR OLD TIMES SAKE

fxck fxck fxck!!!
you can't mix this song with liquor!
when this song gets mix with the shxt i had in my system, somebody's daughter need to me wrapped around my waist - slow grinding like this was prom 1987.

before he got to the: YOUR HAIR - THE PERFUME YOU WEAR - BRINGS BACK MEMORIES
she looked me dead in the eyes and the convo went like this:

whore: why didn't we have sex when we were together?

me: i don't know.

whore: well we're both drunk now. i have a room upstairs. let's do it now and blame it on homecoming and alcohol.

me: i'll definitely be calling you when this party's over. i can't leave my old heads down here as drunk as they are.

whore: don't forget.

WAIT!!!!

the problem was: WE DID HAVE SEX. MULTIPLE TIMES!
how could she not remember?
two possibilities:

1. when i was a freshman - she was a junior and i was intimidated and had performance anxiety so i wasn't as great in bed BACK THEN.

2. she was a bigger whore than i thought and lost track of her conquests.

so anyway...i definitely didn't do it.

afterall - this was the girl that ruined me for ever girl that came after. this was the one i trusted. who would ever think that she would spread like mustard. i became cold-hearted and preyed on the weak - leaving them talking about me to their friends while i scrolled by on their screensaver butt nekkid.

true story!

there were a few i loved - and too many that loved me.
but those were the college days.
we grow up.

but i brought all that up because i actually talked to her the other day. she's engaged now and happy and looks forward to seeing me at homecoming on the dance floor again. should be great times.

so i leave you with this:

'we grow up the first day we have our first real laugh - at ourself'
-ethel barrymore

what's wrong with you, dude?



"what is wrong with you, dude?"

that's how my frat brother & son, skip, addresses me every time i call him.
the problem is this:

2 or 3 years ago i had the opportunity to have sex (because any other word would degrade OR make the situation sound too dreamy) with the baddest - actually - one of the baddest chicks to walk across the quad at the great bethune-cookman college.

***sidenote: mary mcleod bethune founded the beloved school in 1904 with $1.50 - 5 little girls - and faith in God.***

and although the opportunity to seize the moment was upon me, i had to refuse. There were just too many things to consider in the situation. so i opted out.

plus, you know how sometimes there are people who you won't follow up after?
well i know more than two guys who shouldn't be followed up after, and i know for sure one had been in the womb.

and it was just to easy.
so i chalked it up to NO...
and gave him a stare like this:

(the above face is property of @thedrumlife)

so let's shout from the top of our MOTHER EFFING LUNGS!
ITS FRIDAY!

after i finish hustling and auditioning a few GREAT actors for my one-act play for the festival next month, i will iron out something great & make greatness happen!

it is a fact that we do out best when we look out best. SO...i must look my best for you folks.

so i thought about going for the look finally since i'm far away from judgmental black folks who'll point and say "look at this homo in the skinny jeans." (no brokeback)


you how it go. a man can't do too much around his own people before they start calling him names. hahahaha.

which is the reason i've taken a liking to dancing at the latin and white folks clubs...because you can do whatever the HELL you want to do. if i wanna invent a dance called THE SEIZURE and perform it on the bar while i'm pissy drunk, people will look and try to do exactly what i'm doing.

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so i haven't worn underwear in the last 2 days because i need to wash clothes and TD BANK (who i cussed out yesterday afternoon) was fucking with my debit card and didn't send it yet! fuck ass people!

don't get me wrong. i don't mind free-balling at all!
personally, i rarely see the purpose of underwear.
i mean, unless i'm going to church (which is NEVER) and i'm wearing sweat pants & don't want JIM BROWSKI (the jewish butcher - aka - my penis) to leave a print, then eff drawls.

but that brings me to this next picture!
YOU ARE TOO DAMN GROWN TO BE DOING THIS!

so...folks...let me leave out of here and go get some quarters to use this basement washer and dryer that BETTER WORK!

before i go...here is what you need to reflect on:

keep your face always to the sunshine
and the shadows will always fall behind you.

peace.

the little coffee shop


so what i'm saying is this:

washcloths need to be put into the dirty clothes basket after use #1 because if one more of my pubic hairs end up on my tongue i'm gonna be pissed. (and this is not the keep you from wanting to kiss me or to disgust you because i know damn well some of y'all wanna put your pubic hairs -or lack there of- on my tongue)

sidenote: we must not call vagina "womb" when talking about how good the sex is.
i.e. "man, i got this new chick. she's thick as fuck. and she got some good womb."

i woke up this morning to the knock of the mailman and the sound of the ice cream truck that sells corn on the cob.

i mean...if you sell hot corn on the cob from a truck - i feel like you should be playing "la cucaracha" - but i could be very wrong.

oh so...the mailman's package: a care package from the great @fearcediva.
she saved this black man's life.
i've been living off of high sodium noodles for the past month.
thanks to her i can add fruit roll-ups to that diet.
WOOOO!

and speaking of la cucaracha - there was one in my service elevator in my building. not feeling it. he got off on the 2nd floor. thank god i live on the 3rd.
hahahaha

and now...here i am at the coffee bean and tea leaf drinking a chai tea frapp with no whip and working on this great piece of art - thinking about the people who want to keep up with me.

so in closing - before writing - i say:

we are where we are because our thoughts have brought us here.
if you don't like where you are - change your thoughts!

peace


straw-by-straw

okay okay okay...
i know i'm kind of late with the pictures...
but @amandasophia (http://whattheyay.blogspot.com) just got here with her camera and there was a need to upload.
and i forgot hot to work a PC - because i am a mother-effing mac man!

woo.
but...
i'm grinding out this work right now.
i got home yesterday morning @5:00 and me being the computer junky that i am went straight to check all social networks and emails because:

1. i need to know who's missing me.
2. i am always needed somewhere in the world.
3. i'm a computer junky like i just told you.

well...i got an email from a theater festival i entered my script into and they chose me to come show my play there...and i am more than hype.

i am...um...
effing overjoyed (like the song say)!

so i have 4 weeks to cast/stage/direct/crew my show. (accepting applications)

but that was the great part of the day.
so now for the bullshxt of the day:

i'm changing my name to lemony snickett because these series of unfortunate events i'm dealing with are definitely some bull!!!

you hear me y'all: BULL!

so i've been waiting 2 weeks for my effing bank debit card because some hick in a texas trailer park (trailer number one). there is nothing worse than having money that you can't touch when you are fxcking starvin' like marvin.

so tonight @fearcediva (proud member of delta sigma theta) ordered me a pizza from 3000 miles away on her credit card from pizza hut.
they got here and asked for the card - and of course, i didn't have it...
so...they took the shxt back...

so i said "call nasty axx dominos"
and she "okay"

and they came...and went right back when a card couldn't be furnished!
bastards!

but we hustled them and they brought it back with jokes and small talk about my virginia driver's license - hoping for a tip.

eff that shxt, son!
you ain't getting no mother effing tip up in here, roberto!
i grabbed my pasta bowl (recommended by d. griffin) and my philly cheesesteak sandwich and walked back into my new york style studio and shut my door and ate that food like food ain't never been ate before.

hahahahahaha

and here i am...blogging.

so tomorrow i hustle harder than i hustled today to get these dreams achieved.
it's only 1:03am
and i have miles to go before i sleep. (robert frost)

bit i want you guys to be able to hustle harder than me,
so i'm going to leave you with this quote:

it's not hard to find a needle in a haystack
you just have to be willing to look through the haystack straw by straw

peace

cinderella post-midnight



sitting here in my poor people's clothes again, feeling a tad bit appreciate.

GOOD NEWS OF THE DAY: my script was accepted into a festival next month here in LA. i now have four weeks to get the actors & crew and a great show going.

difficult takes an hour.
impossible takes a day.

so last night was the do-damn hooly-happening shizzle!

the cake was thick as hell and the people were great. @amandasophia and @jefro0586 and i threw on our sunday gear and hit the town.

We shot over to Falcon Hollywood for my girl Mara's (ms. dance your ass off! on Oxygen Channel) birthday celebration and ran into a few interesting folks.

the most interesting of them all would be the 6foot 3inch man with the purse that pushed me out of the way - walked up to @amandasophia - looked her up and down and said in a sunset blvd tranny prostitute tone:

"your outfit - cute. you are working that gold chain honey. from the head to the bottom of your toe!"

and then walked off to a tranced out busta rhymes song.

damnit, @amandasophia, we didn't get a picture of that. you should have taken a picture with him...

side note: check out @amandasophia's blog: WHAT THE YAY

and then there was the valet who parked ms. mara's car on the curb - 2ft away from us, and expected a tip to go get it. he was politely stopped and told to get out - NO TIP FOR YOU!

but the cake was a thick ass chocolate raspberry with whip cream frosting.
other than me, it make have been the best thing there.

damn...

so now, i'm waiting on @amandasophia to get off work so she can post the pictures so i can share them with you folks on this great day.

pre-gaming alone!






so i'm waiting for @amandasophia and @jefro0586 and i decided to pregame alone with my bottle of moscato...woo! thanks for the bottle J.P.

check list:
-cuss out tmobile for their bullshit? CHECK!

-give myself a shapeup? CHECK!

-walk 4 blocks in linen pants, a polo and flip flops to get my clippers? CHECK!

-send 7 twitpics so people could give opinions of my outfits? CHECK!

- shower - drink - brush teeth - moisturize lips? CHECK!

-think i'm better than most of the world while listening to trey songz mixtape's Yo Side Of The Bed? CHECK!

so now i gotta go grab somebody's daughter on the dance floor and beg the DJ not to play that song because somebody may end up pregnant within the next two weeks - and another kid is not in the game plan anytime soon.

i'll be tweeting throughout the night and into the morning and blogging when i return if you're at all interested at how the night for this E-list socialite is going - and went...

no worries...i'mma be D-list soon - then on my way to A-list by december.

remember: it's all about WHO KNOWS YOU!

that's the message from me.
Enjoy the video from YOU Tube over there on the side. WOO HOO!

fuck.my.bank (dressing poor tonight)

okay so...

my bank doesn't have any west coast branches because they are fairly new...
and i lost my card and they have yet to send me another...

so i can't get my haircut at a reputable barbershop tonight and i damn sure can't get the shit i wanted to get prior to this "get your ass on the dancefloor" party i'm attending tonight...(you are all invited if you want to come)

so...
i'm going to dress like Jesus.
Not Jesus after the resurrection either, 'cause Jesus after the resurrection was lightweight cleaner than a *****.

i'm talking about dirty foot Jesus with a blanket and nightie. that's right...i said NIGHTIE!

damn you, TD bank. where the fuck is my card?

and now i'm down to my last pair of and i don't know what i'm gong to do if i can't get money to wash my clothes...LAWDY BE!

i'll have to go back to the 12 weeks i had to wear tightie whities.

but you all do know i'm still going to look like i come from money, right?
good.

i need y'all to decide which fit i'ma be rocking tonight...
check the photos: (we're thinking grown & sexy...yes, the cliche)


let me know folks!

Nothing.But.Legs


i remember my grandmother telling me a story or a 5-second back porch, pitty-pat saying that went something like:

ain't nothing open at 4am but legs.

so i guess that may be the reason i'm up at 4am.
well, that's not completely true.
i'm actually up making this blog thing happen so i can keep my people entertained.

so try to keep up with me for a second.

a quick explanation of this blog:

i am here because some of you folks need to see how folks like me live.
the hustlers.
those who know that it's not about what you know - or who you know.
it's all about WHO KNOWS YOU!

so here i am...
making sure the world knows my name.
woo!

so...
tonight me and my girl (and by girl i mean homegirl) amanda (twitter her before she blow up, too @amandasophia) are going to abirthday celebration with some folks we don't really know yet...but we will after this night.

it's a sexy gathering...
and i think i am going to need help picking out some clothes...
because as you will soon discover, i am not at all fashion savvy.
it's rather embarrassing actually.

so i'm counting on some of you to tell me what works and what doesn't...
let's get it!


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